Being Me

The next few months I lived a normal life. The longer I took the meds, the more like "me" i felt. Yes, I still had ups and downs, but they were typical mother-with-2-kids-under-2 ups and downs. When I had a good day I was able to enjoy it and when I had a bad day I was able to manage my emotions. I continued taking the pills faithfully until April. I was feeling SO much better! I would occasionally miss a dose or two and I wouldn't even notice a change in myself. So I decided that it was time to be drug free again. I talked to my doctor to make sure it was OK and he gave me permission to start weaning myself off of them. The weaning process went very well. I had very few side affects and I was actually handling life! I will say that after I was off the pills, my emotions were slightly more intense and when life got overwhelming, I got more anxious than usual. But these feelings were nothing that I couldn't deal with. I felt I had finally learned how to manage this life the Lord has blessed me with. It was such a wonderful feeling to just be ME again... no strings attached.