a new normal

if i've blogged about this before, i apologize. i don't think i have, but it's a subject that comes up repeatedly in my life, so i suppose it's a possibility.
normal.
so often i find myself wondering why life can't just be normal again. and over and over again i have to remind myself that this is normal. the new normal. life will never be as it was before. nor do i want it to be. if life is as it was before, i wouldn't have jada. if life is as it was before that, i wouldn't have eden. and if i decide i want to be even 'more' normal and go to life before that, i wouldn't have nate.
when i look at it like that, i don't want any of those normals! i love what i have now. what a beautiful family God has created!! why would i wish to change it?
our life is a constant cycle of new normals. i think some of them are just a little harder to adjust to than others. i so badly want to just be 'me' again. but to be that 'me' would require that i make changes i am not willing to make. so instead i will adapt to this new normal. i will love this life i have been blessed with. and i will hang on tight and ride this ride until the next new normal arrives.then i'll work through this all over again. :)
i really do love my life!!